2000-12-09

spent all day today trying to write some songs, waiting for the 'right moment' to come along, when everything would come together. and nothing would be jaded. and i would have a story to tell. or a sentiment. its tough because the whole time you spend working towards that moment, awaiting it. expecting it in a way. and then trying not to expect it, like acting like your eyes are shut, but you're peeking through your eyelids a little anyway.

so i was working on it and waiting for the song to come along. you know, the next song that would be good enough to be an heir to the previous good songs that i've written and cannonized. and you know what? i got close. a coupla times. but i don't think i ever quite got there. oh, but it doesn't matter. it was a good day, a good amount of work done, a good orchestration of how to spend time. didn't leave the house till it was dark out. then i realized that it had snowed today. the first real snow of the year, and oh boy how nice it is to see everything blanketed in white.

last nite i went out with vinod. he's still alive, still getting along nicely, in case you were wandering. he wants me to move out to jersey city to live in something called a 'duplex'. that sounds like a diaper to me, so i'm hesitant.