2001-05-20

its like diarhea of the mouth whenever i get excited about something.

its like keep the positivity flowing and there's no end to what you can do.

sometimes the truth is scary.

being positive and happy is the scariest, most frightening endeavor i know.

like i worry over things endlessly, as i see the moment come and pass and pass again in echoes, the moment when i should break into the fray and do my thing; just as everybody else is doing their thing. but i'm Almost forever hesitating. practically on pause for a lifetime.

its like yoda or the dungeon master. take your pick. im drawn to them. both short, old, and wise. both able to flip the dark forces on their heads with a gentle reaction. a flip of the wrist.

also like the karate Master in Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon.

(What a tragedy that he died by a poison dart from the Red Fox, but then again, his under-value-ing of women made him deserve it, in the end...)

(its kind of like a good parable, in that movie, that we can not exist and excel at a certain thing when we exclude any one type of person from that thing.)

(white boys from rap, italians from kung fu, women from drag racing, etc., etc.)

Art Frenzy is in Full Swing. Capital 'f', capital 's'. I'm really enjoying life at moments like this, where time is immemorable, the number of people you meet is immeasurable, and you just get lost in the circus. Would it be too much of a stretch for me to say, "I was made for this?" Only if i didn't include everyone else at the same time.

Yes! We are all made to do this! Party. frenzy. collaborate. chill together.

Love has gotten a bad rap. Its really a pretty tough thing. Love can whup your ass, and leave your wimpering like a little pup. Let's all respect what it is, and maybe it'll go easy on us.