2001-02-25

enjoying the fruits that are around for the mild mannered white guy. i'm no boy anymore, i'm a guy! its certified. soon ill be 25!. and yes, the world rewards mild-mannered-ness. though i bet it rewards bad-manners even more, if you know how to work it. and white! yes, i'm certainly white. Yukiko from Japan calls me "code name: white chameleon" , she calls herself "white hawk".

everyday you can get up and work or take the money that you have made, and spend it! and its great, if you know where to look. fun and joy is everywhere. joy for the lonely people. joy for the socialites. joy and fun for those who like to shock and be outrageous. joy for the politicians, and their harems. joy for the lions that kill and joy for the lambs that bite back. or get lost, singled out.

there are heroes, there is superman and lois lane. there is electronic music pushing pulsing to the frontest edge of sonic exploration. there are myths. joseph campbell's "hero of a thousand faces" i have a thousand faces. i have five thousand days to live. a new day, a new face. recycled processes. We all have heroes in ourselves, voices telling us what is the right thing to do for the moment, the right path to be on is the path with no clear-cut map, the path of most resistance, the path more or less traveled upon. whispers urges of freedom say " hey, its time you went and bought some nice shoes." or "hey, its time you really let yourself Fall in Love!" its always time! time , time, and more time is always falling at our feet. Buy a new record! I bought 3 today.

i am very excited about eminem's glorification and recognition at the grammy's. i am also excited that madonna is going to tour this year, for the first time since 1993's 'girlie show'. i won't see eminem or madonna, though, probably not, no. but its just good to think of the kids having a good time. the radio kids and hustlers, looking for cheap seats.

The girl of my dreams: probably doesn't exist. someone recently told me: the dream that one person has and lives, is just a dream. the dream that two people have and live, is the best reality. -- love.

(that's paraphrased, i can't make it as lovely and simple in words as this non-english speaking person was able to).