2001-02-15

ok we shall see how long i last here...im taking lydias late nite shift tonite because she's at the erykah badu concert for valentine's nite. how romantic that must be. listening to the busta rhymes spinner station. shee-iit yeah. and i just struck up a conversation with this guy derrick who is working here with me, and he's kind of new so i don't know him so well. but it turns out he's very seriously into those seminar schemes about how to make money like what all those junk emails are that everyone gets: casinos, how to not pay taxes, offshore drilling -- all of the 'education' they don't teach you in school, because the government wants to keep us out of school. and im getting scared quick; this is practically the same as a religious zealot convinced they can save me, trying to make a sale. under the guise of self-promoting 'work at home' do it yourself-ing. this is not a pyramid scheme! thats like mary kay, you keep 80% of the money, only the first few sales you make go to your superiors. i run out of things to say to him, and am i afraid to talk to him... well i do tell him that i'm more interested in pursuing what i love, and am ready to sacrifice my whole lifestyle . no i do not and cannot /amnot interested in envisioning making 10 000 $'s a month. and i guess you're right, if i can't envision it, i sure as hell won't make it a reality. Well, he appears to me to be brainwashed. as wacked out as the hundreds of thousands of new yorkers who by lotto tickets everyday. aggggghhh. well i talked well with kelli today, and it was so nice. also tried to watch a little of 'my life in rose' and fell asleep. thus running up my total sleep for the day to what, 3 hours?

Life is grand. let's keep it that way.